Kiss and Cry

I was sitting in the corner of my bed, closing the book I’m done reading, wondering what if today is the end of my life?

What if today I am about to lose someone dearly to me?

What if today I lose everything I have?

When I realized I was surrounded with people who’s older and wiser than me, I realized what if we become old and I will be left with no one but a bunch of funerals to attend to?

What if one day, all of a sudden, i will not just be sitting in the corner of my bed but rather at one of the white seats in a field wearing either white or black.

I got scared honestly.

I don’t want that day to come.

I don’t know if I’m just highly emotionally and mentally unstable right now, but I’m really into these deep scary thoughts.

Maybe I really fear death.

I fear the death of my dreams; The ones i really pursued and fight for.

I fear death of a love one; I still have a lot of love I to give.

I fear my own death ; I’m not yet done saying love you and I’m sorry to the people i truly cared for.

This deep scary thoughts made me appreciate to live life to the fullest.

To live life as if it’s the last.

To make sure to do things right and less complicated.

To always look for alternatives to help before it’s too late.

So to you who’s reading this,

Embrace life’s flaws and little perfections.

The hardships and the victories.

The sadness and the triumphs.

The fall and the resurrection.

Live happy every single day.

“Treat Funerals like Triumphs” – Kiss and Cry, 2017