Dear Authentic Self

Dear Authentic Self,

I wish I learned about you sooner.

There are a lot of times that I tried to ignore you and listened to what other people will say. I thought that knowing you could kill me but when I realized that I was living for others, I wish I listened to you.

It’s not easy to accept my flaws – the reason why I can’t stand in front of the mirror and look at you. You remind me of a person who’s weak and imperfect. I thought that the only way to get rid of you is to run away from you.

The bruises and scratches were not intended for me.

It was out of hard work of becoming somebody else.

I tried to be busy ignoring that I have to be you in order to be strong. Who would love such selfish and self centered person, right? Who only thinks of herself and is not open to other people’s opinion?

So I keep giving more than I have. I keep pleasing others. I live wearing other people’s shoes.

I thought that becoming other people, so perfect and ideal, is the only way to live a fulfilled life.

But I was wrong.

The bruises and scratches were not intended for me. It was out of hard work of becoming somebody else.

I should have listened to you.

I should have known you.

I should accept who you really are.

And that true love is willing to accept your flaws and shortcomings.

I hope it’s not too late to know you better.

I am tired hiding behind people’s back – dictating who I am and who I needed to be.

I want to know you, the things you can do and how you will figure out accepting your weaknesses.

I know you can always do something about it.

You can do something good out of the bad.

I want to be you. I want to be as real as you. I want to finally set myself free.

And accept that I am born in a special and unique way. I am born through the image and likeness of God the father.

I want to be you. I want to be as real as you. I want to finally set myself free.

I am born to be as authentic as you are!